(sorry ladies, hehe)

have i every mentioned that i'm afraid of being in love again? because i'm paranoid that the person would ask for the break up.

i run away from pain, and i try not to love. i try to handle things with control because i'm scared of having to fall and hurt because i can't do anything. to keep in short and simple, this is also why i run away from reality. i'm so tired of it already.

i know that happiness would never last forever. and sometimes because i'm paranoid to say that relationhips would never be prolonged and eventually sadness would enslave me again. i was so tired having the cycle of being in blissful love or comfort and then eventually thrown back into the deepest pit of emptiness and sorrow.

anyway, i love you too hyun joong.

xoxo