endure, woman!

yes, whatever shits that comes into my life, I have to learn to accept it. And re-accept it again and again whenever some small matter changes. I wanna be strong :)


i don't feel comfortable telling my problems to anyone. that is because i really hate talking about it. i feel really uncomfortable when people ask me too many stuffs. i feel extremely extremely uncomfortable. and thats because i keep the problems to myself, and only share it with the trustworthies, ONLY.

sometimes i look at myself and i ask myself whether i deserve anything; and i realise i actually might not really have anything. argh i dont know. maybe it's because i'm blessed with so many things that i'm such a bitch. for that i like to isolate myself from people because there's this inferior feeling or whatsoever. i dont like labels and i dont know what's wrong with me :(

i'm totally aware that i'm becoming more and more of a person who doesn't like all the socialising. i like to move away from crowds.

i just cant wait until i'm over with my teenager years :( seriously. i want to interact but i love isolating myself; i want to share but i cant seem to open up my mouth to anyone; i want to cry but something's holding me back..

lunch-box!