Well the past stuff I wrote and saved are all redundant and outdated now so I shall not paste it back. Blogger let you change the date to suit the time you actually wrote the entry but I guess it's not possible here. RIGHT?
i hate people who don't think before they say or DO anything. people like myself. im so crushed. very crushed.
for the first time in my life i wish i could cry. i've not cried for i dont know how may days/weeks. and i just wanna cry right now. i've been trying to be strong and immune to every circumstance too long that i'm no longer vulnerable to feelings. i know it's scarier to not feel anything and to feel everything too much. how is it that i'm an emotional person now not being emotional? it's like not being myself. how am i supposed to feel okay like this :(
you know there's this part of me who wants to be optimistic like i am, and a part of me who would naturally and automatically turn away from crowds being the melancholic side that i have. it's so difficult to compromise between both ends; it's extremely difficult now and i dont know what to do arghhh.
i need a big bear hug :((((((
